I’m irritable and I think I’m manic. Hanged out with my friend over the weekend after isolating for a few weeks. Now after being around people and going shopping I feel very uneasy. I have a phone appointment with my psych doctor in two hours. I’m so scared of being hospitalized again. I just want a normal life. I want to visit friends, get a job. Im too sick to start dating again but I’m starving for an intimate relationship. I’ve been living in a bubble since I quit my job and now after being out and about I feel worthless. Killing myself is easier.
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irritability can be part of mania, part of depression too. You won’t get hospitalized unless you are considered dangerous to yourself or others. If you can find a way to stay safe, they’ll leave you be.
these feelings, as with most of them, will pass. You can get through this. hoping for better is too much pressure, seek peace with things as they are.
what even is a “normal life”? I’ve never found it, not in a way I could see myself in it.
the best it seems reasonable to hope for is minimal pain and people to care about who care about you in return. I’ve got that, and it took way less effort than I thought it would. Now, finding purpose in the void, that’s another battle entirely.