My therapist told me statistics show you can become way more happy if you do that every day.
My day today was pretty shitty but I will try.
(It is really a hard question today)
1.) Cup of coffee isn’t instant and tastes delicious
2.) my twin reconnected with me after a few months of nothing
3.) my socks are done in the dryer all FLUFF
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What the hell.
1. I got to pick instead of dispense at work today. Much better work assignment, second day in a row!
2. I saw Patty for the first time in five or six years…we held hands briefly, as I tried to jog her memory…she’s in her late 60’s, mostly blind, and requires a wheelchair. She came to the store with staff from her care home, and I had to stop picking to go to her….I used to drive her from her job to her care home aboard a bus, and we had so much fun together…we spoke for a few minutes today, hands joined, and I’m unsure if she really remembered me. It was so good to see her.
3. I went for a walk, and saw the scraggly gray cat in the front yard of the house on Winter st. I don’t walk the neighborhood like I used to…it’s such a foreign landscape, a memory from a distant dream since Hooks died…but today I did, and there she was, and yes, she followed me down the sidewalk and forced me to pet her, meowing her crackle, old cat meow, purring with pleasure as her old bones got scratched.
It was so good to see Patty…
I’m glad you got to see her again! Those moments are the sweetest.
I remember taking care of an older lady years ago. She’d beat me at bowling and we’d go out for ice cream and sit in the park, or go on drives and sing johnny cash… I’d love nothing more than to visit her again. We became friends in a sense. I don’t think she’d remember me, either, though.
Even when the role feels small, you grow close and realize how important you were to another person. Give or take. I’m sure the lady I worked with would still call me by the wrong name, even though she couldn’t help it xD At least I’m a part of her perception (a bunch of friendly faces that keeps her smiling.) Patty obviously sees you as that at least 😀
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I bet the walk was lovely. I’m in the same boat, tried a walk since everything smells like flowers. A dog followed me some of the way, but ran when I turned to notice it. I’d keep walking, turn, there it is behind me again.
(: Perhaps the gray cat was a sign hooks was thinking about you.
Hi, I like your post. It made me smile. I tried hard, very hard and could not think of 3 things. Not a single thing, eh well except your post made me smile. I keep thinking, it will get better, but it doesn’t. It’s just one battle, one harm, one more anything, everything after another. Watching a show where a loved one died and I think you were loved and are missed, I wish I could trade places with you and you could live and I could die.
I’m glad it made you smile. I bet you have a beautiful smile. Nobody could hold a candle to it.
this is a great post and I bet thinking this way can help over time. But I had such a bleak day that all my answers came out sarcastic. (I didn’t get any new delinquent payment notices today! …only because I was too busy self harming to check the mail.)
I have those days too
you shouldn’t do that to yourself, you deserve so much better. the world is already shit, why one up it? fuck those notices
*why try to one up it? it’s okay… the bill collectors aren’t crying or pained, you are. and you’re more important. at that, you shouldn’t hurt yourself. you aren’t a piece of shit