I quit alcohol & drug abuse cold turkey around 2 years ago. Life seemed to get better after a while but now it’s just as bad as when I was wasted 24h/day. Maybe even worse. That’s what I’m wondering about.
A few days ago they published a study that showed some forms of self harm are actually therapeutic. Could the same be said about alcohol/drug self harm? I’m not talking about just 1 glass of white wine with dinner, but I mean maybe 1 hardcore blackout alcohol or drug binge every couple weeks or so. The idea is that self destruction in controlled doses might help ease the weight of depression.
Has anyone else gone through these extremes? Addict, sober, or some middle ground? Because one things for sure, sobriety isn’t going to save me.