Love Ya Not ?

I am aro, i choose not to love romantically. all my relationships have ended with my partner cheating on me/catching feelings for someone else. (my first “love” being a 20 something man on skype grooming a 12ish year old me on skype, he always asked for pictures… never did, thank god)
most recently, i had made a mistake to “try” loving again, which ended up having my ex breaking up with me, becoming obsessed with me and cyberstalking me.
i cannot tell you what love is, im sure i’ve probably felt romantic love once in my life, but i don’t really remember what it’s like, but i like being myself. i don’t like tying myself down to someone. but.. i do seek love or comfort from my friends. its easy to say “I love you” to a friend, because i absolutely mean it.
am i afraid to love? maybe, after all my experiences, i would say so. but heartbreak always comes in life, whether it be romantic love or losing a friend. love changes and so do people, whether its for the best or the worst is only the end of an era for you. it hurts to see people move on without you, but you must learn to also move on for yourself.