Miss her

my best friend is mad at me and i couldn’t defend myself. all my other friends told me she’s selfish and using me for school and stuff, i really know and noticed that , but i always look to the bright side, she brought me to life, i actually like her and probably im in love with her, im confused i thought that i lost those love feelings and we’re besties now, but as soon as this happen i knew more that i couldn’t, everything reminds me of her, i don’t know what to do , it is killing me, im stuck and can’t stop thinking about it