I’ve done some bad things recently. It’s my second DUI. I deserve death! I never thought fear could be dangerous but it turns out my fear is my biggest enemy and it’s quite harmful to those in my community. I drink to self medicate my extreme social anxiety. I’ve made myself a promise as an alcoholic…….I WILL NEVER DRIVE A CAR AGAIN. I tried all the tips and tricks to dealing with social anxiety but I’m someone who really needs medication for it. It turns out that Psychiatrists don’t wanna prescribe anything useful because they’re afraid of getting sued. Apparently there’s a lot of “patients” who end up selling their medication on the streets and then the psychiatrists get sued by the victims of drug overdoses. It fucked up because they had no intentions of handing over drugs to a drug dealer but the law still blames them unfortunately and as a result it becomes harder for me to get the proper treatment for my social anxiety. I’ve tried Yoga, meditation, exercise, positive self-talk, etc. NONE OF THAT WORKS! So nowadays I self medicate with alcohol. I mean what other options was I left with?! Nobody wants to believe just how bad it is for me so I’ll just self -medicate! If all it took was a little yoga or exercise I would’ve been healed a long time ago! I hate them! And I know they’re just doing their jobs but I’ve had it! I need medication and these people just won’t listen to me!