I’ve done some bad things recently. It’s my second DUI. I deserve death! I never thought fear could be dangerous but it turns out my fear is my biggest enemy and it’s quite harmful to those in my community. I drink to self medicate my extreme social anxiety. I’ve made myself a promise as an alcoholic…….I WILL NEVER DRIVE A CAR AGAIN. I tried all the tips and tricks to dealing with social anxiety but I’m someone who really needs medication for it. It turns out that Psychiatrists don’t wanna prescribe anything useful because they’re afraid of getting sued. Apparently there’s a lot of “patients” who end up selling their medication on the streets and then the psychiatrists get sued by the victims of drug overdoses. It fucked up because they had no intentions of handing over drugs to a drug dealer but the law still blames them unfortunately and as a result it becomes harder for me to get the proper treatment for my social anxiety. I’ve tried Yoga, meditation, exercise, positive self-talk, etc. NONE OF THAT WORKS! So nowadays I self medicate with alcohol. I mean what other options was I left with?! Nobody wants to believe just how bad it is for me so I’ll just self -medicate! If all it took was a little yoga or exercise I would’ve been healed a long time ago! I hate them! And I know they’re just doing their jobs but I’ve had it! I need medication and these people just won’t listen to me!
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Sorry that you haven’t found the right therapist that can help you out and prescribe meds….maybe you should join those AA programs?
Or substitute something else that is less harmful than alcohol, like weed for example. I normally would never suggest such things, but anything that can make your situation better is worth it.
I’m sure the last thing you ever want to do is hurt someone else on the road bec of your dependence on alcohol. Best of luck.
As a recent divorcee from an alcoholic I may get it. Maybe not. It’s not something entirely in your control. You keep fighting, and yet it gets the best of you.
Do your best to get the help you need in this. idk if AA is the best, but it’s something. Something > nothing.
I have an ex wife who has literally thrown her life away in favor of alcohol, and I’m the asshole who destroyed everything because I couldn’t bear living with her addiction anymore. From the other side, please get whatever help you can, and keep on fighting. If you don’t fight, it’s just worse.