It’s so tiring. I cant go a day without thinking about her. Her responses is affecting my mood all the time, even my happiness. Now she’s mad at me. Or I at least think so? I don’t know what to do. One thing I know is that I’m so such a bad friend and I really don’t deserve friends. I wont even let my favorite person have other friends, and I know it sounds so stupid and toxic but I can’t help it. I wish I could stop being an insecure person and just tolerate her having other friends! Even though her other friends are much cooler and more interesting and much more easier to be friends with. I wish I could be easy to be friends with. Why do all my relationships have to be so unstable. I hate my life so much, it’s tiring. This is so tiring.
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There is always going to be insecurity amongst friends to some degree. I remember in a documentary about the beatles Ringo Starr went to John Lennon and said he was leaving the band because he thought the other 3 were real close and he was the outsider, Lennon replied ” but I thought it was you 3 that were close and I’m the outsider”. Starr went to Paul McCartney the same day said the same thing he said to Lennon and McCartney replied ” but I thought it was you 3 who are close and I’m the outsider”. In short everyone has doubts from time to time regarding friends.
You might have BPD. I would look it up and see if it matches you.