The same shit all the time. My family argues in the car, sister all over me and not giving me any room, same “turn another leaf” bs. Same lack of understanding. Same lack of caring. I think about jumping out the car all the time, I wonder if they’d even care. But they dont drive fast enough to cause anything major, I don’t think.
I have no one. I’m so tired. Every morning I wake up and think “why the hell bother”
I get in this mood on sundays pretty often. Mainly because of the same bs that happens all the time in the car, and having to go to church is draining. I could’ve slept longer today if it weren’t for that.
I dont belong anywhere. Or with anyone. I’m just here. For nothing. No one even wants me around. They dont want to talk to me. I guess in the end I deserve it. In the end I guess this is my atonement for all sorts of shit. I deserve this pain, don’t I? They dont want me because I’m not worthy of being wanted.
Please kill me
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Cant relate more i really feel everything is a burden and i dont belong with anyone or anywhere so i understand that feeling. Maybe you are younger than me so i can tell it wont get easier, just embrace this dont fight it will be more easier for you knowing you are not made to live among others and theirs sick society
Myself, I gave up church for these reasons a long time ago and have recently found space to repair my faith, even with my own doubts. Live for yourself if you must.