I didnt realize until last year, in my early 30’s, that I was supposed to be building someone this whole time. I used to think people were the way they came, and that was it. Now I know that the majority of who someone is has to do with what theyve built themselves up to be. Of how much effort theyve put into building their lives up.
I look at my time differently now. Do I choose to play video games or to go workout? Do I work on that book Ive always wanted to write, or do I get high and watch cartoons on the couch? I realize now that most of my own suffering has occurred because I havent put in enough effort into building up my life, into building up myself. Ive spent too much time being lazy.
Today, I choose to work on myself. Parts of me greive what couldve been, but the other parts remind me that I still have what could be.
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That’s a good positive attitude… just remember to take care of you.
Sometimes trying to do good work, become obsessed with improvement and pulling for the next jump
then lose grip and land in the mud….. then it gets all the harder to start again, to lie to yourself again that this time will be different, this one will work.
I’m just sayin’ if you don’t get high and watch cartoons every now and then, what’s the point of livin? Success is transitory, wonderful to chase, but equally interesting to avoid for your own pleasure.
also, on a personal note, curious about the writing a book thing? I’ve done one attempt at non fiction and one fiction, and neither got through the first draft… November is writing month, but I don’t know if I’m going to try this year. I could learn Java in that time, maybe get into grad school…. all as transitory and worthless of each other, yet all having the undeniable sheen of success…. if pulled off right. That’s the big catch, if pulled off right.
Then I end up with the proverbial junk food of authors, Quora.
How to finish writing a novel? Well you have to devote some time every day day to write a bit of something. It doesn’t have to end up as a book. A short story, a poem, a one-shot.
If you write enough chapters, enough words they will compile into a book. That’s how it was for me.
@Plainwhite im not only commenting for heartless. It’s also an advise for you.
Start writing just a little bit everyday. If a novel feels daunting then write a short story. If a short story feels hard then just write a one shot.
I finished writing a novel by starting with writing short sections.