I will go out the way I want to even if it’s long and painful. Why do people have to be judged for that. Maybe I deserve pain if I’m so pathetic I can’t find their extremely rare chemical compounds that supposedly everyone is miraculously able to source. “Just Google methods duuuuur” what the fuck do they think I’ve been doing? The pro choice forum I was on has contributed greatly to me being forced to stay in this hell. I was not expecting to find difficult methods that are impossible to get right and be shamed for not wanting to choose them. Fuck SS they all want to be told it’s not their fault and feel validated why don’t I deserve that too?