STOP LYING TO ME

I hear you. I’m listening. You may hate it when someone compliments you or tries to deny your self-doubt, but you need to know that they may have similar thoughts. They may have gone through their hard times already or are currently facing them. They say nice things to you to minimize your impact on their life, so they don’t feel uncomfortable talking about something real. I have felt a similar feeling and it keeps coming back. I’m not good at comforting people either and that may be because I, myself, am uncomfortable too. Because of my own thoughts and feelings. I feel like you need to work on yourself instead of just talking shit about yourself. It’s something that I’m doing too. Find an outlet for your stress and stick to it. Do something everyday, no matter how small, that makes you happy, EVERYONE CAN be useless, but at the same time every useless human on this planet can make an effort and stop being useless for a bit. Then you can go back to being you. The people that are comforting you, they don’t want to feel useless and for that reason, they try to make you feel better about yourself. Your self-esteem is low and doing something that makes you happy, as well as finding an outlet can help you improve it. My friend does something called self-praise and that makes him feel better. That’s a good thing. Instead of doing something stupid and selfish like I did. What I did is called self-doubt and that’s where you talk shit about yourself. Another thing, when you need to think, that’s called using your brain and that’s smart. I thought that was common sense. When you are sweating, you are anxious and nervous. If you can’t do an assignment, there’s nothing wrong with that. There are many other reasons than being stupid. Seriously, not cool man. Not cool. Don’t say things like that, even if you think it’s true. If you really feel like you need to express your shitty self to everyone, then get someone to talk to. I’m here for that by the way. It would be healthier for you if you would express your nice and caring self to other people. I’ve been through this many times and it never ends well. I have had someone that was close to me kill herself in school when I was younger. If you want to know what happened, She hid in a class after it was time to leave and after the school was on lock-down for the night, she tied a noose with the rope that she brought and got a ladder then attached it to the ceiling of the 20-foot tall cafeteria. She recorded herself doing it in a live call and you can guess what happened next. I was shown the video and I hated it. I hated her after doing it. Tell ya one thing kid. Life is a ***** and we all need to get used to the true cruel world. You can try to make it better and be the nice guy or you can help destroy the world by being negative. The people that are complimenting you are trying to make the world better and be the nice guy. I’ve been through lots of things and I’m here. I’m listening. I’m trying to be the nice guy no matter how I truly feel. I bottle my feelings up and shove them deep down inside myself. If you want to talk, I’m here.

Side note: We are all made up of stardust in case you didn’t know that. We are all taking up space. We are all truly made of space. Everything is.
Finding topics that I can use to help or feel better is another thing I do to help myself and others. Just know that you aren’t the only one going through this and people that have already gone through this know how it ends.