I am back here again. Been a year+ I was gone from SP. Not that the past year+ was good mind you. Just not enough to push me to come back to SP I guess -_-
And no, it’s never a good thing to be back, to feel so miserable that we run back to the only solace of commiserating with others who feel the same rotting despair and hell we do.
Anyhow, idk if anyone remembers me. For those who do, Hiya! How’s everyone doing? I know, a funny question. If we’re here, it usually means we’re doing terrible.
How’s the site been? Lots of activity? Very few activity? Very few active ppl left on SP? Any noticeable changes to the site or the ppl here?
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Hey eternaldarkness, I you’re one of the legends from when I first joined. It really sucks that you’re still here but aren’t we all?
This site is surprisingly the same, I think. Different people, some regulars, an occasional longtimer popping in, but same the comforting vibe has always been here which is why this is the only forum I stick around.
Would love to hear what you’ve been doing, what you’ve tried, whether anything was effective at pushing the monster back even for a little while. I figure the longer a person survives in this hell the more valuable information they have to offer. Kinda like an explorer dropped into the mouth of hell, everything they report back is crucial. In any case, great to see you’re still fighting.
I’m one of the legends? lol I didn’t know I was a legend 😛
teehee, thanks 😀
Nah, I didn’t really push any of the demons away. Things weren’t great during that time either. I just left SP bc back then there were some ppl who consistently made mean comments on everyone’s posts, including mine. If I’m already depressed/suicidal, I don’t need someone to kick me even more.
SP has always been one of those places where there were good ppl to commiserate with, and there were always those others who made mean spirited comments. I think after I left those mean ppl weren’t on SP anymore. A lot of ppl had left and SP became kinda dead for a bit. Something happened and SP got “cleaned up” I guess. Maybe enough ppl got fed up with the mean comments and collectively said something? Idk. All I know is that once all those ppl left, SP became a lot quieter, and I no longer see much of the mean spirited comments.
“whether anything was effective at pushing the monster back even for a little while.”
lol, i swear consuming sugar and eating tasty food like pizza and desserts made me happier than any dr, pill, mental health hospital, crises line, etc. ever did for me. none of that helped.
so i say f* it, go splurge on stuff, eat tasty stuff, engage in the 7 deadly sins 😉
Yeah I think I joined right around the tail end of the meanness and lurked thru the cleanup phase when things got real quiet. Then took a break for a while, just came back last month or so. You’re definitely a legend and it’s great to hear you’ve survived… I’m sure others didn’t make it. Pizza & desserts, now we’re talking lol that’s the kind of therapy I can agree with. Only problem is food can turn into a sort of drug, losing its effectiveness as we eat more & more. Before you know it you’re like Marlon Brando in his depressed years, I read he used to eat a couple wheels of brie by himself hiding from the world on his private island mansion. After a while it didn’t seem to help him. But the thing is I bet it was still better than any therapist or drug treatment he could find. The thing about food is that there are infinite possibilities so if you get sick of brie you can switch to chocolate mousse ?
yep it does. food gives you a nice feel good hit for like a few minutes (or a few hours at best), then it goes away and you’re left feeling depressed again. but yes, more effective than any other standard pill/dr/etc. and if you’re rich enough, you can go travel the world and eat amazing food all over the world. that’s what i would like to do.
idk anything about marlon brando other than he got really obese but i’m sure all that hollywood pressure on him to look good doesn’t help. idk what his issues were or what he went through but yeah, that’s sad.
lucky u to join at the tail end of the meanness. i’m sad to say i was there for the whole duration, and it was so shitty. here we are, already depressed af, many of us we come here at the last of our rope with no where else to turn and then to get punched and kicked by these asshats was disgusting. it went on for a LONG time and NO ONE called them out, and if you tried, YOU got crucified. so yeah, that was super shitty. it wasn’t just ONE person, it was a bunch that got off on shitting on others. i was disgusted by those ppl here. if i can’t get comfort and solace here, then why be on this site? to get more abused? so i left. and yeah, shortly AFTER i left the site got cleaned up and many of those asshats left. i was like, go figure, AFTER i left -_-
The more things change, the more they stay the same and all that.
I do recognize your username. It’s always good, I guess?, to see a familiar face still finding their way back. Good or bad depending on context. It’s an odd comfort, despite the site name, and despite what’s gone through.
I hope things have improved, even slightly, for you.
Trey, the mindless gamer
Hiya Trey, good to “see” you.
Nah, things have only got multitudes worse, not better. Hence back here again -_-
What’s been new with you? Played any good games lately? Oh yeah, since I’ve left SP, I have started playing some online games. They suck time and money tho O_o
most recent one was horizon: forbidden west. Nothing like an interesting story and world to distract the bad thoughts. I guess gaming helps me focus when I can’t a lot of the time…
Online games are a double edged sword, communities can be good or bad, the money put into online games as opposed to like a single player game (story driven type)… yeah, I just tend to play more solo stuff, that’s just me though.
yeah i prefer to play the solo stuff too. this current game i’m playing lied to us in their ads. they made it sound like a puzzle game, but it’s not. SO many ppl joined bc they were mislead by it. the first few days was fun and then it turned out to be one of those community games and there’s no puzzles. but i had already invested time in it and idk…now i’m kinda stuck in it lol
i got suckered -_-
if u could live in a fantasy world, any world (game, movie, comic, etc), what world would u want to live in? i mean…if we’re forced to “live”
Hello again! I’m sorry to hear things are worse and hope being here will help.
i hope so too, but we shall see. life never gets better, only worse -_- sigh…