I just wanted to be a scientist. That is all I wanted. But I don’t know if that will come true. It seems like life doesn’t want that to come into fruition. I’ve tried studying for it , but the math is so complicated I am not sure If I can do it. Maybe if I take one class at a time? I am getting older however, so I am not sure if I can take the liberty to do that. I feel like the scarecrow from Wizard of Oz. Except there is no wizard in sight. I love science. I really do. I am not sure why life has made me an idiot who cannot achieve their dreams. I’ve been so dumb as an adult. So incompetent as an adult that there are many jokes I am the butt of. I thought I could do it. But Maybe I can’t. Maybe I’m just incapable. Maybe I am not meant for it. But I want it so bad. I once heard Elmo say this is when you have to believe the most, When dreams are having trouble coming true is when you need to believe the most in them. But that is easier said than done. There’s a lot that goes into a dream coming true. Unfortunately one of those things can be money. People struggle getting that particular asset. I hope I can make it. It is a satisfaction I want to get for myself. I want to do this for me, I want to do this to prove him wrong. I want to do this as a stepping ladder to my dream career. I have big aspirations and dreams, but who knows if they’ll end up in Greenday’s boulevard. You know the one, the Boulevard of Broken Dreams. I just want to be more than what I am right now. And I don’t understand why life is giving me such a hard time. For the song, it’ll be the one I just mentioned.
For the image, This one which I have shared before. The one where Dorothy is with her new friends about to meet the wizard. Well at least I think that’s what this scene is.
For the question:
What dream are you NOT willing to let go of?
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“Maybe I’m just incapable. Maybe I am not meant for it. But I want it so bad.”
History’s greatest minds were often incapable of doing it the normal way, but they wanted it so bad they did it their own way, and better. If you’re not doing great with academics maybe you can find a shortcut to your dream?
At college orientation there was a speaker who told us this story: A young man signed up for a computer science course and asked a whole bunch of dumb questions. He didn’t seem to get how computer architecture worked and he kept talking nonsense. He dropped out after a few days. That young man’s name was Bill Gates.
idk how accurate that story was, but the point is clear, you can still be a HUGE success even if you can’t play by the rules, even if you can’t ace all the exams. Maybe, as with the Bill Gates anecdote, if academia isn’t working for you, you can find a shortcut to a greater success in the same field?
I would kill to be in your position.
Chase after your dream, with all that you have, every single fiber of your being. Afterall, if you die having never been a scientist, I’d imagine that would be a death you would not feel great about.
You are going to die. Your life is going to end. Do not waste it. Keep going. And if you’re struggling, Consider telling that to someone who can help you, like a teacher or councilor.
But whatever you do, don’t give up on your dream. Guard that with your very *SOUL*.
I wish I had a dream to chase.
Life is funny when it comes to dreams. I pivoted from engineering to a more computer science adjacent thing , no degrees, just a cert or two rn. You have a passion for science, maybe try something a little different. Get a different perspective and see how you feel. You could always try something science adjacent. Or maybe try things in a different way math wise to get to where you want to be as a scientist. All in all, nothing but the best of luck to you.