I’m slipping up again

I lost all my friends back home, I question if they were ever my “friends” or just people I was around so I didn’t show how lonely I felt. I care for everyone and anyone, never asked for anything in return or needed help but when times got tough and I became the person that needed help, they were gone like the wind.

I thought moving away from it all would help, I didn’t have anything to lose as it was already gone. Starting University I moved as far from everyone I previously knew as I could. It’s funny really, they all keep in contact but me? Nothing…

I made new friends here, and for the first month or 2 I thought things were getting better. Reality set in and the façade was up, I was swiftly brought back to whatever this is now.

This being me sitting in my uni flat everyday and every night. Numb. Crying my eyes out.

It’s back and even worse, I figured I would talk to people, but I get the same results. People distancing themselves subconsciously. Even as I write this Post, I can hear all my flatmates, laughing, giggling, joking around…

I’m slipping again