(I am aware that these are not new, interesting, or smart thoughts)
I think the most meaningful realization I’ve ever had was that nobody on this planet knows anything. People just live and die. By knowing things, I mean having a clue about life, having a broader understanding of purpose and things like that. Non-mentally ill people had me tricked, because I always thought that they had things figured out. But in reality, its just that they never needed to figure anything out, after all, theres that concert on Saturday that they’re excited to go to.
Sometimes to reinforce this belief in my brain, I ask myself if I went outside, picked a random person from the street, and send them back in time about 250 years and asked them to explain how electricity works to people the people of the time. Maybe I’d ask them to explain how a phone works, but perhaps that’s too complicated. Most people think they know more than they do. Most people think that if they went back in time, they’d be able to shower those around them with a divine knowledge. In reality, the average person would not be able to explain pretty much anything outside of whatever field they are most experienced in. Although, its not their fault. It’s just how society is. Besides, things are moving in a “think less, do more” direction anyways.
Why would that guy on the street with really expensive shoes but a super ugly T-shirt need to know how electricity works anyways? All he needs to know is that when he plugs two metal rectangles into the 2 rectangular holes in the outlet, his phone starts charging.
This is all to say that all of these thoughts helped me relax for a bit. I always thought everyone knew more than I did, everyone had things more figured out then I did. Knowing that most people are clueless is really relaxing. Although my anxiety will find reasons for it to not be relaxing, because being relaxed??? cant have that. Most people not knowing most things.
this post sucks. why did I write any of this. It doesn’t matter how braindead or stupid a person is, just the fact that they possess a human brain means that they have enough intelligence to cause my brain to explode and overthink so hard that i give myself a headache that makes me useless for 3 days. i was just re-reading this post. and i read the paragraph just before this one, and i completely forgot about that anxiety thing i said. i dont think this is anxiety though. i should go back to therapy. its worth the money.