What can I do to “cope” with the shit life I can’t seem to escape from? So far, the only thing I can do is stuff my face and feel good for a few minutes, then go back to feeling like shit bc all that does is get me fat and I do not want to be fat.
I USED to exercise like mad, 3hrs a day every other day, and that worked beautifully bc it released my pent up anger. But obviously I can’t do that now. I’m physically fucked so now just walking hurts- something as simple as walking a few blocks. I mean I technically could walk more as exercise is healthy but it hurts my feet and there’s no way around that. Bc walking hurts, I don’t want to do it, even if I know it’s healthy. Also, it’s NOT good for my feet, even if walking is good for my cardiovascular system and all that. So I’m screwed if I do and screwed if I don’t. Don’t walk/exercise and my health suffers. Do walk and my feet get fucked up.
I used to run a lot. But now I have breathing issues so I cannot really run anymore. I suppose I could jog a few blocks but again, that hurts my feet AND I can’t breathe well, so what do I do? Do I do it anyway? And gasp for air the whole time? I mean I already have problems breathing on a daily basis as it is (health issues), when I am not doing anything physical. So bc it hurts my feet and makes breathing really hard, I do not like or want to run/jog. I can “technically” do it but it’s not really good to do it or is practical. Then I feel like shit bc I know I “should” be exercising but haven’t. When things hurt, you don’t want to do it. Have not done actually running/jogging in over a decade.
I’m screwed if I do and screwed if I don’t. And no, I don’t belong to a gym- it takes effort to get to the nearest gym (like 1mi of walking which is fucking far for someone with walking issues) plus it’s $$$. And no, walking around my shit neighborhood is NOT a fun thing to do.
Anyhow, I have no coping mechanism anymore. Watching videos doesn’t help. Listening to music doesn’t help. And no, yoga or journaling does NOT help. The only thing that’s helped in the past was a TON of exercise to release my pent up anger, and I can’t do that anymore. Obviously, I don’t want to get into drugs or cutting.
So what else can I do to “cope” or release anger?
What actually works?