Goddamnit, I had bought a flight, but it was a day earlier than I wanted to leave (not packed and ready to leave tomorrow night), but it was booked a few days ago, and tonight I saw the flight I wanted, but it meant I had to cancel the flight and rebook and pray that nothing goes wrong and someone snatches my flight as I cancel and before I can rebook (the page is SO slow, lagging, takes many minutes to cancel and rebook), so I decided to think about it first before jumping on it. I re-checked it 1-2 hours later and it was still there so I went to shower, and now the flight has gone up $135! FUGGGGGG!!
It didn’t say “1 ticket left” or “x tickets left” like it usually does, and when the last ticket is bought at that price, then the price goes up, usually by $15-20. I thought the price wouldn’t increase or jump if it didn’t say “1 ticket left.” I know, my stupidity for basing it on what it typically does and didn’t account for the fact it would just increase willy-nilly anyway.
Now the ticket has gone up by an extra $135 so I can’t book that flight.
Goddamnit, I need an extra day to get ready. I’m not ready or packed to leave tomorrow night :'(
I don’t want to travel that day and hadn’t wanted to buy that ticket for that day. The day I wanted at the time of the purchase cost more. But tonight it was actually less and I could have fucking cancelled and booked it for that day.
I feel like a fucking idiot for not purchasing that flight right away. Why did I wait? Bc procrastination :'(
I am so not ready to leave tomorrow night. Not packed. Also haven’t called and looked up stuff I needed. That one extra day would’ve made a difference.
WTF is wrong with me? This is why I don’t like myself. It should have been a simple decision to cancel and re-book for that day. But noooo….I was second guessing myself, like well I’d have to pay an extra day of rent but the flight going out 1d later would give me an extra day to pack and get ready.
It’s 3am now so I’m too tired to do anything tonight. I hope I can get ready by tomorrow night. I need to look up some locations and maps of where I need to go when I get there and that hasn’t been done either. Damnit, WHY didn’t I jump on booking the next day and cancelling? Now I can’t. The tickets are all too much now to change to any other day.
ugh I know that feeling. I can’t tell you how often I’ve lost a great opportunity just bcs I decided to “think it over” (translation: procrastinate). well at this point you could either choose to hate yourself, or you could see it as a *new* opportunity. idk where you’re going but if you have an extra day there, maybe you can plan something that wouldn’t have been possible otherwise. Like a trip to a museum or whatever. Anything so you can justify taking this path instead of the other one. Sometimes survival comes down to convincing yourself that you didn’t fuck up lol
exactly the problem, i’m always blaming myself and nitpicking at every little mistake i make. it does me NO good to feel like shit about myself but it’s like automatic and second nature. idk HOW to just be like “eh, whatever”
I like to console myself in such situations by imagining that maybe I was going to have an accident and die if I had gone on that date. I saved my life by not going on that date. Silly but works, prevents from going too deep in self criticism.