What sort of things would you want out of life if the conditions in your life were optimal (a.k.a. no depression, no sickness, no regrets)?
For myself, going to college, starting a career, and staying fit would be important to me. Id want a house, a spouse, and to travel a lot.
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I would want to do exactly what I’m doing, same choices, same path, just not feeling like shit all the time.
Quiet house, car, phone, well informed people, amazing warm friends.
That stuff, there isn’t an exit button. Someone beat themselves to it and it didnt stop. Sometimes, I don’t think life is fair. I’m trying to think of a political figure that stood up for oppressed people then turned on them and joined the majority… Bah. Anyway, It’s been a very long time.
I’d be going back and rewriting my story starting at age 5, and I’d have to rewrite substantial portions of my parents story as well…. but, skipping ahead
I’d have focused in on engineering sciences much younger, skipped all the effort trying to understand people. I don’t know how much higher I could have climbed, if I’d been in a career receptive and encouraging to my temperament
I’d have at least two kids by now, that’s for damn sure. My cars would be in perfect repair. I’d probably take three months off a year, at my age, and the kind of wealth I could have built.
ah, shoulda-coulda-woulda, can we ever really know? I can’t help but suspect new demons and obstacles would have appeared, and who knows how I would have dealt with them?
In real terms, I’ve reacted to the best of my ability. So what if this is that fabled timeline where things go as right as they ever could? Perhaps there is a more miserable version of me out there in the multiverse.