General by Divine 6/9/2023 written by Divine 6/9/2023 wow. it worked. i flew under the radar. now my sn is shipping here. Finally. /Fresh air/Deep breath 5 comments 1 Email Related posts UBI and Depression 10/1/2023 Dumb Affirmations 10/1/2023 I Wonder If I Should Burn That Shirt 10/1/2023 I’m looking out for me 9/30/2023 Mediocrity 9/30/2023 I don’t fit, I can’t fit 9/29/2023 I’ll be honest I can’t stand being Trans... 9/29/2023 Life is Worth Saving 9/28/2023 Life is Worth Losing 9/28/2023 Cognitive dissonance and OCD are destroying me 9/27/2023 5 comments FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 6/9/2023 - 11:31 am hey! ummm, could i ask… what’s “sn”? If it’s a ‘good bye cruel world’ tool… could we please talk about this? :/ please don’t do anything, okay let’s at least ‘try’ to talk this through <3 Log in to Reply Divine 6/9/2023 - 4:19 pm No. I’m already late. The end of the 911 video by Gaga has it – Ashley, you’re so ugly, or she’ll change it to annoying or she’ll change it to doctor. Ugly, annoying, mentally ill. Meaning, “you don’t stand a chance in this world” It was humiliating… I’ve accepted that my life’s going to be much harder when my mom passes away. The stuff going off in my house… No digital privacy… I’m letting Gaga have it because she like, baited and bullied. I can’t move forward. I’ve been so removed, for so long. I’ve seen hatred before. This is a sign that it will never feel better than this. Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 6/12/2023 - 4:20 pm hey! i firstly really really do apologize for the delay, & i’m really really relieved & thankful to know that You’re still here… i would like to tell You that i’ve listened to 911 as many times as i could & Divine… i still can’t find anyyy reference to those sentences or meanings You’re referring to… Her last line in the lyrics is: “Please patch the Line, Need a 911, Can you patch the line?” & then her last words in the Video Clip are: “I’m sorry!” & “I don’t wanna die” No ‘Ashley’ there at all, or any of those other words You mentioned is it possible maybe this was all just a misunderstanding between You & Gaga’s lyrics? : ) i can’t say i know her personally, but i’ve watched some of her videos talking to people & fans, & she seems like a really kind hearted person… But, just for the sake of it, let’s imagine what You said was true… Divine, i really don’t think Gaga’s opinion [or anyone’s opinion, for that matter, no matter how important or famous they are] of who & what you are & of your worth as a human being & of your potential/future in this world… i don’t think her or anyone’s opinion about ‘You’ is of any real relevance or true value to your life… Forgive me if it’s unwelcome, I completely understand if You feel so & please feel completely free to stop reading the rest at any point You wish… I just feel this is a Central problem in the condition You’re currently going through… a problem in ‘Self-Valuation’ / Self-Worth… So, forgive me, but it would honor me to share with You my own modest view of it: i personally believe in 1 All Mighty Creator to this magnificent Universe who created [& continues to create] all its living creatures, including us & based on that belief/World View: A human being’s base value comes from the mere fact that this All So Great Creator *chose* to create them & to give them Life on this Earth… You’re valuable & important simply because out of all the possible other human beings that He could have easily created *instead of You* that Creator chose to create *You* & no one else but *You* No One Else on this Whole Entire Planet can take your place ‘Divine’ There’s only One of You You may not share my belief of a Creator, & that’s completely okay… but Creator or no Creator, that sentence above… that fact… still remains true… One ‘Divine’ that’s all we have So it’s worth A Lot to the World that ‘Divine’ stays here with us for as long as they’re destined [/coincidently permitted] to stay Additional to that ‘Base Value’ a human being has a life-long chance to add value to themselves by doing their outmost best, throughout their life, to righteously/honorably/positively *fulfill their maximum potential* to the world around them by striving to increase their personal resources & capabilities as much as they can so that they can then use these resources & capabilities as efficiently as possible to do as much good as possible for the world & the living creatures [humans & all other] in it… reduce as much suffering as they can refrain as much as they can from doing or spreading harm do as much as they can to stop/fight harm They would live like a soldier on a mission so that when it’s God’s[/Coincidence’s] time for them to die they would have an even higher value than their value when they were born & they would leave the world hopefully a bit better than when they came to it if even just a tiny bit Sometimes a human’s battle for good ends in an apparent defeat they grow old & die & none of their efforts led to anything visible but they don’t realize that just their mere fighting has positively affected all those who saw them fight, & might be the inspiration & the reason why another human decides to follow their footsteps, put on the battle armor & soldier up to the same mission & that, Divine, was my very own ‘Life 101 Crash Course Introduction’ : ) if not convincing i hope it was at least an interesting read & something that can hopefully keep your mind away from anything harmful i hope [& pray] You stay safe & i’m right here if You wanna talk about this, or anything else at all take care <3 Log in to Reply Divine 6/9/2023 - 4:25 pm Now, all I have to do is wait. I want to pass before my mom. I own my own house, just fyi. I need to get it ready so I can die in it Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 6/12/2023 - 4:22 pm my reply above has ‘most’ of the reasons why i’m hoping, & would constantly hope, that You don’t & never do this i hope You can stay <3 Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.