I haven’t officially completed my undergraduate degree yet. I’m in my final semester. I got the chance to start working early and took it, but I couldn’t keep up with everything. Over time, I’ve become increasingly disillusioned with people almost everyone. There are many things I genuinely enjoy, but I haven’t been able to fully pursue even one. I’m earning now, but there’s no real happiness in it. Life feels exhausting full of masks and meaningless routines.
Both my personal and work life feel completely messed up. I don’t know where to turn, what to say, or what to do. I’m just barely coping, surviving each day. What makes it even harder is not having anyone who truly understands what I’m thinking, how I feel, or the emotional chaos I’m stuck in.
Sometimes, I just can’t control the tears they flow like a waterfall, and no one knows but me. I feel mentally unstable and lost, with no idea what to do or where to go from here. As a result, I’ve lost interest in everythingfo od, people, even the things I used to care about. It’s like nothing matters anymore.