hi eternal, it’s good to see you (if that means anything)
I’ve felt very much like a black sheep for a long time, but I don’t think I can fundamentally hate people. I can really dislike people, but I don’t think I can really hate anyone.
I must be lucky in comparision to the amount of shit that gets thrown onto others, but I’m finding that solitude overall is my way of coping with that feeling.
Society only works if we all collectively agree to its silent rules, else there’d be pure anarchy…
I know you’ve been through lots so I can understand your feelings on this, but I do hope you at least have a good day today.
have to appreciate the irony that today, checking in to see who’s feeling what and there are at least six spam posts demonstrating the worst that humans do; clutter up spaces people need. Maybe I’m cranky. Yet, I’m with you on this a lot of the time; people suck, especially given the otherwise potential.
I don’t even have the energy to report or help clean up, and I feel bad about it. For a short bit anyway, I spend my days cleaning up people’s messes. It’s what occupies my life…. If these kids parents wanted to they could learn the treatment modalities and they could do the work.
Similarly; I could have been an IT worker, the passion was not there, I could not bring myself to even wear the mask of caring about whether people had access to the server. So what? Google, Amazon, all the titans of this industry are such huge sacks of you know what…… there’s no inspiration for line workers to be effective.
Within the very small camp of my own corner of my discipline, the people who study what I do are ethical, that is why I can justify what I do. Small comforts. No AI, bribery or cryptocurrency in my field.
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hi eternal, it’s good to see you (if that means anything)
I’ve felt very much like a black sheep for a long time, but I don’t think I can fundamentally hate people. I can really dislike people, but I don’t think I can really hate anyone.
I must be lucky in comparision to the amount of shit that gets thrown onto others, but I’m finding that solitude overall is my way of coping with that feeling.
Society only works if we all collectively agree to its silent rules, else there’d be pure anarchy…
I know you’ve been through lots so I can understand your feelings on this, but I do hope you at least have a good day today.
have to appreciate the irony that today, checking in to see who’s feeling what and there are at least six spam posts demonstrating the worst that humans do; clutter up spaces people need. Maybe I’m cranky. Yet, I’m with you on this a lot of the time; people suck, especially given the otherwise potential.
I don’t even have the energy to report or help clean up, and I feel bad about it. For a short bit anyway, I spend my days cleaning up people’s messes. It’s what occupies my life…. If these kids parents wanted to they could learn the treatment modalities and they could do the work.
Similarly; I could have been an IT worker, the passion was not there, I could not bring myself to even wear the mask of caring about whether people had access to the server. So what? Google, Amazon, all the titans of this industry are such huge sacks of you know what…… there’s no inspiration for line workers to be effective.
Within the very small camp of my own corner of my discipline, the people who study what I do are ethical, that is why I can justify what I do. Small comforts. No AI, bribery or cryptocurrency in my field.
Yes. Humans. I find it really hard to deal with them. Especially at the peak of my depression when things are not internally well with me.