I seem to have made it over the difficult part of not drinking. Things have calmed in my mind, and I now have a clarity that I havent had in a long time. Ive been 100% sober from everything for about a month now. 26 days today.
Im so grateful that Im free from it. I didnt realize the hold it had on me, or how it was affecting me inbetween the moments, when I wasnt high or drunk. I have a great clarity now.
I am dreaming in my sleep again, and they have been very vivid dreams. I experience them as if Im awake, and Ive been keeping a dream journal out of curiosity about them.
I have a lot more money and free time. Ive been exercizing to take up the extra time I have now, and Ive been losing weight.
Ive made friends at the sober meetings, and im not nearly as isolated as I used to be. My social skills are improving.
Most of all, now that Im over the withdrawal hump psychologically, I feel more at peace. There are times I feel genuinely happy for a change, and I wonder what portion of my depression was due to alcohol/marijuana use.
If you are using anything, I encourage you to get sober. The 30 days are rough and difficult, but on the other side of that, your chances of improving increase astronomically. Life is just better sober, even the painful moments.
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This is such a refreshing post. Things like this make me feel there’s still hope for the world, all said and done. Happy for you dude and hope you never look back from here.