Next Tuesday is the tenth and final week. I should’ve gotten an answer by now. It’s not coming tomorrow. 4th of July. Everyone is off. Doubt it’s going to show up Monday or Tuesday. If it’s a no, I wish they would’ve just given it to me already. Want to move on with my life. Probably should’ve been looking for either a job or an apartment this whole time. Instead I’ve been sitting on my ass waiting for a response from people who probably don’t even want me in the first place.
Every time I think about it, all that goes through my head is what a bad idea this is. I didn’t know what I was doing before and I still don’t. This is going to be much much harder and its expected that you are able to contribute in some way. It would be easier to get an entry level job at some no name company and just coast. Do the bare minimum and just get by and try not to get fired. Do that for 40 odd years. Still would probably fuck it up though. My brother is going into his senior year of high school. He is indecisive about what he even wants to do in life. It annoys me to hear, but then I think about my own indecisiveness. It’s hard to expect a 17 year old to think about the rest of their existence. But you would think that a 26 year old would’ve figured something out by now.