Too much suffering

I look all around me and all I see is cruelty and suffering. I can’t get these thoughts and images out of my mind. I myself have suffered enough, but nothing compares to the suffering of those that can not help themselves. I am done caring. I am exhausted, I can’t help or make a difference. My heart is dead and can feel no more. Just a shell now, blowing in the winds of a life that has no meaning. No joy or happiness, only pain and fatigue. I feel death breathing on my shoulder. Whispering a solution from the pain of life. I don’t belong, I never have. Where is the exit? I keep searching for a way out and find only guilt. Just another stike against me. Does anyone know the answer. I have so many questions, but no answers……………….