Every time i get close to doing a suicide attempt, one thing in particular stops me. Survival instinct. My brain won’t let me kill myself.
Except, last night the depression got really bad. I was having trouble breathing, couldn’t stop crying and my whole body was trembling. I just wanted the pain to stop. Not breathing seemed to help calm myself so i did that a few times. At some point, i didn’t feel the normal pressure of my body making me breath anymore. I just held my breath and didn’t feel the urge to breath. At that moment my survival instinct was gone. However, the […]