i don’t think that normal people can understand what depression feels like and they keep asking you to do the things that makes you happier
and what they dont know is that nth makes you happy or even comfortable
you are literally tired of waking up,sleeping , eating, not eating …… nth makes you comfortable
when you lie in your bed it feels like if the gravity is 100 times stronger
and you feel so empty
you feel like if your brain is shrinking and your soul now is smaller and that your body and the world is so much bigger than what you […]
5ara
Do you think that there should be a specific reason for suicide ? An event or sth?
what do you feel about somebody who committed suicide ?
Hi again
So what do you actually think about suicide?
The idea of death just keep popping up in my head everyday
i just wanna die i just wanna die i just wanna die i just wanna die i just wanna die
i hate my family i really do
i hate that i call them family ……..
i was diagnosed with depression since march
i read that the most awful thing about it is that you dont know when its going to hit you
and this is so fucking true
i was with friends now
and suddenly i felt like if i am not with them and i started acting weird and left the place early
i went back home
i wanted to sit with my dad but he was busy watching TV , he didnt even say hi back to me
i am going to the dr this Wednesday
sometimes i feel that i am using the dr as alternative to […]
i have 10 bad and horrible days then a good day
ive been in this cycle for a while now
and its really sooo tiring to start this cycle over and over again
i hope it will end
it is so not fair that i will go to hell and my mom will go to heaven just because she has given birth of me
she is MOM
i think
can i be happy again ?
i have just made a chance for my mum to be nice and let me go to the gym like everything is all gone
but hell no
she wants to take me there and then pick me also after it so that she can make sure i wont meet guy in the car or sth like this ………
this is shot n.1 for today
lets see what is coming …….maybe this sounds stupid or silly or nth
but i just wish that after all this emotional damage i can at least have my normal routine without disturbance
i hate her
i wish she is dead
An hour ago I was about to commit suicide
But here I am
I guess I have survived another day
I don’t know if I can do this anymore
I can’t even hide my sadness anymore
And people are starting to leave me
Since I am so sad for them
Good night
i promised myself that i will commit suicide today at 10
it is almost 10 now
and i have been reading about the symptoms that i will suffer of after taking all those medicines
i am scared
if both doing it and not doing it
i am scared of doing it because probably i will die but not a nice peaceful one and if didnt work i might suffer from different health problems .. also i am pretty sure my family wont support me
my dad would say that i am too weak and this is because i am a spoiled girl
my mom […]
what is love ?
and can you give it if you have never ever received it even from your parents ?
i am 20 years old
i dont think that i love or loved sth ever
i am selfish yes
i hate my family since they are a big rock in my way
i dont know actually what i am writing
so sorry ….
i woke up today feeling nth
i just want to go to sleep and sleep forever
but i cant
because they will wake me up and i have to explain why i want to sleep
so here i am on my laptop trying to pretend that i am productive so that i can prevent talking to anyone
my life is so much controlled by my familly
i really hate this
my mum has just made the thing that is the most powerfull triggor for suicide
she did that so that she can be comfrotable
she did that because she wont let me marry sb if i am not virgin so that she can be fine and nobody would say anything about her
what a good mum ……….
well i have always been different
i was the girl who was sexually abused by both of her brothers when she was 9
i was the girl who has always been into the sexual stuff
i was the girl who was soooo faaaaaar away ( emotionally ) from her family and she thought that this is normal
then when i was 11 i realized that i should be closer to my mum and i have tried for 2 years but no response and that hurts and gave up
then i started talking to guys online and then i started using fake names and fake pics […]
for the first time in my life i have suicidal thoughts
i dont feel that i want to die but i dont want to live the life as it is right now and i cant change it …..