I’m stuck
It’s true, you fuck up the pace of your life once and it’s all over. I see now why Japanese schools are so strict and have so much of an influence in student’s lives, if you slip up even once in life, it really is all over. They’re not making it harder, they’re just bringing reality to the forefront of the equation. I left my hometown 9 years ago because of a condition, and trying to make any life out of the pieces is impossible. No one contacts me. It strikes me how competitive life really is. I missed out on some crucial experience time to build bonds. Now I have nothing and no one. And I probably never will ever again.
🙂 I can’t do anything. I can’t take antidepressants either cause they scramble my brain, and it’s possible that I have a personality disorder and I was told that’s what happens to people with PD’s who take antidepressants. 🙂 Natural crap won’t work. This is one of those cases where I NEED the chemical reset because the case is so extremely and deeply ingrained in my brain that I can’t have life otherwise. And yet, salvation eludes me. 🙂 I don’t even know what it feels like to be capable to work a job because I’ve been like this for so long… I can’t imagine how people do it. It seems like torture.
https://www.forbes.com/sites/alisonescalante/2020/08/11/researchers-doubt-that-certain-mental-disorders-are-disorders-at-all/?sh=1f2e987015a6
I’m getting desperate…
“How many times can a loser fucking lose? I know you’ll find a way!” – Slayer
I keep asking myself this question. I’m running out of people to talk to, things to do, ways to distract myself. Didn’t there used to be a user-made discord for this site? What happened to it? Does anyone wanna talk to me? My username is Prudish#6582. Maybe we should make a new discord server. The loser’s den! Ha! How about that? How does that sound?
Lemme guess: You got crushed by society and never pursued your dream either, right? Yeah, that’s how it goes. Artsy female? Wonderful. Artsy male? May as well hang it up and become a NEET like me.
Anyone here into gaming? There’s this app called Parsec that allows you to remotely share your PC and I’ve been looking for people to play a few PlayStation 2 games with. I figured if you’re suicidal, not being bored might help. Idk. I’m not actively suicidal anymore. I stopped seeing the point of coming to this place since it’s obvious wasn’t going to do it any time soon. Anyways leave a response if you want to play or have any game suggestions and have a functioning controller of some kind.
Yep
As I come to grasp that I’ve had depression since I was a child
As I come to grasp the cruel joke god has played on me
I can’t have kids because they’ll jut be as fucked up as me
Why am I even here
(Song)
The way to deal with a narcissist, for anyone wondering, is to ask them questions. Questions that reveal how empty they are. None of that turn the other cheek crap. Just keep your cool and be nice and keep asking questions and watch them get flustered. It’s how you turn the mirror back on the narcissist.
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am tainted
And happiness
And peace of mind were never meant for me
It’s gotten to a point where I literally witness my abuser’s mannerisms manifesting in those I talk to because I’ve internalized their neurotic energy so deeply. I see the dynamic between my mom and I play out in real time between me and strangers. I recreate that dynamic. My mother has crawled inside my body. And made me a clone of herself. And now she seeks to make more clones of herself. I’m contaminated. And I’m contaminating others.
“okay like
Took me a little while to realize it but what he’s saying basically is removing faith as a motivator in replacing it with a blind devotion to facts is similar to giving a child access to the internet and replacing their natural curiosity with an ability to use google whenever they want
The shift from faith to concrete evidence as the basis for reason is the beginning of a process which eliminates all intelligence from mankind
Same thing with nihilism
communism
globalism
transhumanism
It’s about heterogeneity”
“yes its what solomon is saying”
“this just makes me think, and i mean, really solidifies it, that everything has already been thought of and said
so
i mean
we embrace the wisdom of solomon and others and bla bla something relating to knowledge
or we exist in a state of perpetual anarchy devoid of knowledge
and who cares”
“you explained my indifference to it pretty well”
What people mean by faith is just the spontaneity present in the act/experience of understanding. As she said, according to solomon peace love understanding wisdom knowledge faith belief spirit humanity, it all means the same thing.
To help others without being sanctimonious and dismissing what may seem trivial demonstrates true empathy.
It’s a very simple formula. When conflict arises, seek resolution. Resolution is attained through reason.
There is a principle called Hanlon’s Razor that states: “Never attribute to malice that which can be adequately attributed to incompetence”… or as I say, ignorance.
Who are the ignorant? Those who lack awareness. Reason is often eclipsed by tension. And tension often arises due to a lack of patience. Those without patience lack awareness.
i’m not a real person
but i don’t want to be a person
being a person is worse
but each is worse than the other in its own unique way
what to do
i could browse discord or sp
i could turn on my playstation
i could go back to sleep
yay
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