I’m a porn addict ( I don’t enjoy watching it though)
An internet addict
Addicted to my smartphone…
But now I guess I’m a SP ( the suicide project) addict also .
I open this site more than 10 times a day .
That’s insane . I spend most of my times reading the posts made by the other members of this site.
But the good thing is that sometimes it helps me to prevent myself from watching porn . So thank you. Thank you to all the peoples who read my posts and commented.
A dying soul
A dying soul
Hi! I'm a 20 yr old girl from India. Depressed ,lonely ... just an ordinary girl , nobody ever bothered to know.
Today is one of the worst day of my life.
Have no words to describe how I’m feeling right now.
Over the last 2weeks I’ve caught an awful cold, dreadful coughs, sneezes and a runny nose and to add some extra spice to it I having a really bad headache since yesterday.
I’m silent but there’s a war going on inside my head.
Those faces who were laughing at me,those staring eyes,unwanted stress,jealousy …just
too many thoughts running through my head.
can’t sleep.
I can’t move my head. Its too heavy and paining.
It feels like my brain is too small for my skull and […]
Do you believe shooting stars *** have the power to fulfill our wishes?
As I was standing outside staring toward the dark sky full of stars, suddenly there was a shooting star in front of my eyes.
I wasn’t expecting that.
This was the first time I saw a shooting star.
Yes it made me happy but I didn’t make any wish because I know it will never come true like other millions ,billons of prayer/wishes go unheard.
The universe or the person sitting out there doesn’t give a shit about it because he is just too busy fucking our lives.
Hopeless life…
All I can do is cry…but that ain’t going to make any difference
I cry when I’m sad.. I cry when I’m depressed… I cry when I’m alone …
I cry when I’m in crowd… I cry when I’m being made fun of… I cry when I’m angry… I cry when I feel broken… I cry when everyday life makes me realise that how useless I am… I cry when I feel unloved and unwanted … I cry when I feel shattered… I cry when I miss you so badly… I cry when I miss our conversations… I cry when I need you but you are nowhere to find… I cry when I remember those weak moments […]
A friend came to my house to visit me with someone I’ve never talked to. It triggered my anxiety.
I really don’t like it when people come over to my house,sometime I don’t even like my friends to visit me.
I feel embarrassed about myself.
I feel really very awkward and uneasy.
My anxiety levels go through the roof.
Its not that I don’t want to be around peoples . But whenever people come over to my place don’t know why I feel so anxious that it causes me a lot of insecurity and stress than joy.
Maybe its the fear of being judged.
Nobody cares unless you are beautiful, talented or dead. And I’m none of them.
I’m alive and trying to survive,but sometime the mind can’t handle all the pressures of life.
There are many reason for my depression but the one that kills me everyday is that
I’m fat… pathetic the most disgusting thing on this planet.
I hate myself ,each and every part of my body.
Every time I see my body in the mirror makes me realize how ugly and useless creation of god I am.
I can’t wear or do the things I like.
whether they know why we are fat or not,people don’t care,
they judge .
Being fat is like a crime.
People discuss so much […]
Today I woke up angry,frustrated, annoyed and irritated,for no reason.
I find myself getting mad over every single thing.
I guess the only reason of my anger is that I’m still alive.
SP just got a whole new look and it looks amazing.
#3
Humans are social being and many people in this world might be social animals but unfortunately I’m not one of them . I socialize only when its necessary.
I no longer log into my Facebook account. I left that 3 yrs back.
I keep myself isolated from outside world as much as possible.
Today all the people around me are in a festive mood,but I can’t join in their their festive mood.
Honestly I’m jealous of other people’s happiness. Its not like that I want them to be sad,insecure or unhappy like me but I don’t know what kind of feeling is this […]
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(Please forgive me for my bad English,I’m not very much good at it)
Hi I’m 20 yr old girl from India.
I know most of the people here are from UK, US,Australia etc but I’m just curious to know if anybody else is here from India.
I’m not new to this site,I have been a member of this site about 2yrs ago.I forgot my old account’s username and password so I created this new one.
Like others I also found this site when I was searching for the easiest and quick methods to kill myself on google.but somehow I survived and thankfully I reached […]