indifference is all i feel..nothing else…nothing that makes me happy…and the things that i do feel are pain and sadness….that is somehow not right…
abbygone
seems like its been a long time since i have been here….
things have gotten worse…
i don’t know what do to…i mean i know that killing my self is the easy way out…
i’ve had enough of buying ashes with my love…
i really do not need this
i am giving up, i need some kind of hope….i surrender i have no where else to go…i don’t think that i need to open my self again…
but once i get strong everything will be better…does that make sense? …. i feel that it doesn’t
i know what i have to do but it just hurts so much…and the tunnel seems to […]
indiference
that is the opposite of love….love is having emotions, feelings, whatever you want to call them, for another human being…hate is the same thing….both of them are something extreamly intense, indiference is the total opposite…..you dont feel anything…….
my loved ones have left me, Jake died………Lili moved and now she doesnt care about me….My parents only live to work and work to live…..my brother, big brother, the only one that would at least TRY to understand me left to college…….my little brother just doesnt care….my friends have moved on…they have found new friends and they dont even smile at me when they see me, who else […]
i am lost….i dont know where to go, there are a thousands paths, a thousand hands, a thousand words, a millions souls, Mirrors and mirrors they only show me what i am….what if i dont want to hear it? what if i want to hear lies? to hear that they are worried? that they want to help me, that they want to listen…….but they dont, they accuse, they point, they point to all does marks, mistakes, errors, sorrow, pain…..how can they help me like that? i dont want to hear that they are sorry….why hear apologies? they are not the ones to blame! I dont […]
i dont show how i feel i am always quite, i am always alone, i suffer alone, the last time i let someone in they only left a bigger hole…..i pretend to be happy, i pretend to be good, i pretend i dont cut, which just makes want to cry….i dont feel nice today, i feel like an ice on this day, all i have to say, is that i am going away
Pretend
Hiding behind the Smiles
Faces and Clowns
Laughs and Fun
I am so Tired of this
I am so Tired of this
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Pretending everything is alright
That there is no pain at all
Should I […]
i have no way to go now….
what can i say? i dont know what do! there is this whole that rips me apart every night…i thought i was doing a good job not cutting but know…..i see the knife, scissors, even mirrors and there is a voice inside telling me to do, that i need it……
tell what i am supposed to do! i thought i would be all good now but……i feel alone and sad all the time and there is no apparent reason for it! i am just sad depressed…
i stared writting poems again and they all talk about pain, suicide, sorrow, hate, monsters, […]