Hi, I am 50 years old and in a relationship at the moment, but not living with him; was married - abused - divorced - remarried - abused again, left by 2nd husband while mentally ill and broke. I managed to rebuild my life, but I am still suffering from recurrent major depression, chronic PTSC, and Borderline traits. I've got two grown-up sons, who still live with me, and they are the main reason for me to not opt out, but then, since the youngest one has turned 18 and left school, that reason to hang on is no longer as "absolute" as it used to be. I've spent a lot of time in a psychiatric hospital, I am on medication, I've got a terrific psychiatrist and psychologist looking after me, and I've got a good job. But I am just tired of the struggle, and tired of the "gift that keeps on giving".