What would you have done differently?
I’ve so rationalized my departure. Slip on the hood in a hotel turn on the cylinders and I’m gone.
46 years old in London, I have no significant other or children, no job for 2.5 years (living off savings about to run out and benefit ), no car, no home, I’m sofa surfing with family (they don’t know I homeless) and staying at B&B’s (belongings in storage), no friends.
I’ve had tons of counseling, tried many meds and I remain with absolutely no confidence or self esteem whatsoever. My departure will be a favour to society and the planet.
Then the other part of my […]
approximately 92-96% of suicide attempts end in survival.
According to a report released by the American Association of Suicidology1, there are 25 attempts at suicide for every one success.
It bothers me because failure means my life will be even sh*ttier, than it was before the attempt.Â I hope I do a good job of it.
The stretch of track I live near is the most notorious in the UK for suicides. And they do it during the rush hour which closes the main line from London for two hours! The news rarely even makes it on the local paper.
However, a woman in Pennsylvania went deep into the woods and died using helium (only directly harming herself) and it madeÂ international headlines.
Whats the deal with the media and reporting suicides?
If I was in a Nazi concentration camp, part of the black slave trade or something like that, I would think this a really crappy life with no future, in a shed load of pain, involuntary supporting evil selfish people.
I would have no qualms nor hesitation in terminating myself.
Although there were instances of this, the vast majority didn’t.
How does that work?
I realise that when the moment comes it’s going to be difficult, the instinct/will to live will be VERY strong.
I tell myself I am just one of 7 billion humans who will all be gone anyways, on a planet that will also be gone after that, in a universe that will be gone after that.
“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.” – Mark Twain
“I regard the brain as a computer which will stop working when its components fail. There is no heaven or afterlife […]
Source : Baumeister’s Meanings of Life
In 1969, three sadistic researchers investigated the human stress response to loud sounds.
Participants in this experiment tried to solve problems while subjected to random blasts of unpleasant, unpredictable, loud noise. Working under these conditions was quite stressful, and most participants showed harmful aftereffects during the hour after the noise stopped. These harmful effects included lowered frustration tolerance, poorer concentration and persistence, and unpleasant feelings.
One group of subjects, however, chosen individually at random, had been told by the experimenter before the study that there was a button on the desk that would turn off the noise. The experimenter said he’d prefer […]