I would just like to say thank you to the both of you. I don’t know who you are or why you decided to help me but, I’m so glad you did. I obviously never went through with my suicide attempt and now I have the most beautiful girlfriend in the world. She is smart, goofy, adorable, and I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! :). She makes me so happy, instead of dreading every morning and sleeping all the time, I wake up excited to spend time with her and experience new things with her that I would never do on my own. I cant imagine ever again wanting to kill myself. I hope that by posting this that some of you going through tough times see that yes life IS EXTREMELY HARD and can at times suck but, like me you can find someone who can change everything for you if you hang on and push through. I see now that suicide is a cowardly way out and its much more rewarding to push, fight, and beat the hardships than to give into them.
if you like me are suffering from depression you should check this video out it didnt help me but it may help you…http://www.upworthy.com/this-kid-thinks-we-could-save-so-many-lives-if-only-it-was-okay-to-say-4-words?g=4&c=fea
As the title suggests this will be only my second but final post… ive struggled with suicide, depression, anxiety, and anger for too long now. tonight is is the night I have nothing to stop me. I wish it was night already so I could get this over with cause i cant stand feeling this way any longer. got drunk and pissed my one and only friend off last night…for the bes that way she wont care about me passing…even if it does im done caring i told her several occasions that im no good for her…this will be practically a year from my last suicide attempt that she stopped…i dont really even know why im bothering to type this all out…not like i want someone to comment and try and talk me out of it…ive already read all the websites got it all planned out…just a matter of time now…. i always told myself i was just another statistic…they say suicide is the third leading cause of death for teenagers….in just a few hours ill happily be part of that.
Depression and suicidal thinking seems to have taken over my life for the past year…could run on about my sad life… the traumatic sexual assaults as a child…the counseling… but why? Does anyone really care..? well the problem is someone does…my best friend has been dealt a shittier hand in life than me…its what has brought us so close…so there in lies the problem…as much as i want death how can i go through with it knowing how much it will hurt my friend..?