well, my mom had a stroke 2 weeks ago. so now, i’m the one taking care of everything, while everyone is at the hospital with me mom… and now i’m getting bitched at because i’m at home, taking care of my sisters kids while shes at the hospital (can’t have kids in icu) because i’m not at the hospital, i’m working and trying to take care of all the bills while they are all off work…. what the hell am i supposed to do> i’m at my breaking point…
amiez
amiez
well..... i'm 26, from a small town in oklahoma, married to my second husband. no kids. i've been depressed/suicidal since i was 11.. diagnosted borderline personality disorder last year, after 5 or 6 misdiagnoses.. attempted suicide 2 times.. got put in hospitals both times. talked my way out of both of them. used to cut, havent done that since december 2010. i still crave it though. i have an okay life. hubby somewhat understands... little things get to me more than big things. i'm tired of being fucked up in the head, i've delt with it this long, whats another day, right?
so, ya. i’m a newbie. and, like everyone else, i want to die. i have a good job, a great husband.. but i still want to die. the voice in my head is trying to sabotage all that i’ve worked my ass off for my whole life. so, i’m tempted. tempted to make it better. i have 30 150mg trazodone.. few bottle of liqor.. knives.. razor blades that i’ve hidden from husband, cause he’safraid i’m gunna cut.. we’ll see if tonight’s the night.
hi everyone… i’m a newbie, my name’s amy. i just wanted to post and say i’m sorry for the loss that is effecting everyone tonight.. i didn’t know her, but i’m sure she was amazing, and had a beautiful soul… rip, young lady. you will be missed by all of your friends you made here…