It amazes me that even on an anonymous suicide discussion forum, I can feel so misunderstood and more alone than I did before I found this place. I didn’t come here to win a contest or to have the most provocative story to tell. So why do I feel exhausted? Why do I feel as though I’ve done nothing but defend myself here? Maybe I never properly explained myself. Maybe I was too vague or too quick to just let it out. My back is up against the wall. I didn’t cause my problems this time; oh yes, I’ve been guilty of it before, brought […]
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[Why do people reappear in your life, making you think they care about you, but they only end up reminding you why you’re alone?]
Well, decided I’ll hang myself [if it comes to that] instead of doing the helium bag thing. Used to be scared of hanging myself, thought about pain and how long it would take to die. I’m not afraid of that anymore.
Not sure where to find that perfect balance between being optimistic & not setting expectations too high. So instead I decided not to be optimistic at all. There’s no such thing as fair, or earned, or merit. Just a lie they tell […]
I posted a few days ago about my situation. To keep it brief I won’t go into all that again, but basically I’m considering suicide and if it comes to that, it’s likely to occur within the next 2 weeks or so; or when my money runs out, whichever comes quickest.
A few things occured today that I find, ironic for lack of a better word. My mom picked me up and we’re driving to pick up my sister. She turns down the stereo to tell me a story. An old friend of hers, Gloria, called her last weekend and had some sad news. A very close […]
I’ve been lurking around this site for quite some time without posting my own story/words. I’m going to try not to ramble right now but if I do, forgive me. I have no one to talk to and I’m hoping that finally writing this will alleviate some of this pain.
Instead of starting with explaining my past, I will start with the now. I am a female, 28 years old. This past Tuesday I was fired from my job. It is approximately the 15th job I’ve lost within the last 8 years. I was only there a year and a half. I just went through this […]