I’ve decided that once I’m not pregnant anymore I’m going to go through with it. My children can go live with their fathers. My son won’t have the things my daughter has to know I love him but it’s whatever. I can’t do this anymore. 16 years of this is enough. 3/4 a life is enough. It’s never going to get better and I’m ready to go. I have a playlist made and I’ll put a list of things like bearers, honorary bearers, flowers, body plans ect together.
I can also get started on the letters for people.
As you can see in 16 years I’ve been planning and playing this out decently.
Had I been able to ever get employment and not been a pile on welfare I would’ve even saved to cover expenses for whoever might have to foot the bill.