What a bunch of crap. Being born into this frickin cruel world. I don’t want to be here but do not yet have the courage to finally let it go. As much as I am struggling with whether or not there is a God, I don’t want to live in eternal hell either. This is bad enough. I can even see my friends pulling away. They’re getting sick of my pathetic life too. Sigh…………
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atmywitsend
I have been having thoughts of killing myself on/off for several years now. I have even lost my 20+ years of sobriety. I just “want to go home”. I am sick of the struggles, of the things in my past that affect me each day to the core of my being. I have spent thousands seeing several therapists, all to no avail. I am a walking robot cut off from the world about me. I am successfully employed and financially stable with loving friends and family. But nobody can understand the depths of my hell. The horror called life. I am so done. I am […]