I wish I didn’t have to return to this state of mind its something I really enjoyed being away from. I met this girl and it was promising. Then it was changed in an instant. Like a car crash but mentally. Waking up one day learning someone no longer loves you is one of the hardest things o have very gone through. I have my problems but when I was with her they went away I was actually happy my life was actually fantastic. I’ve never felt so terrible or panicky in my life. It’s hard idk what to do. I guess I have my […]
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If I lose it I’m done. I need help but there is no help in sight. I’ll bail for a few or maybe longer… idk I’m losing my mind.
I Don’t want to feel this way I don’t want it to end the way I feel like it needs to. I don’t know why it feels like a logical decision and it feels like it’s the best way to deal with the situation I am in. Will my problems go away? Yes but I know it may hurt some people so I can’t but maybe if I apologize ahead of time maybe give a reason before I do so a few days ahead. Apologize to the people I care about the most which they probably don’t really care themselves. Maybe then things will be […]
Have you ever been in a situation where you think things are going well but secretly things are a lie. I have this problem where I get stabbed in the back quite too often. I also get lead to believe things which end up being full of shit wasting my time and making me feel like whats the point. I have some time but that clock is ticking. The nights are restless, this is only the begining. FUCK why am I still thinking. Stressed guess she Wasn’t impressed. One last breathe and into the abyss. That’s okay things are more calm now, life is just […]
I have decided to full out clean my room it will make things easier if things need to unfold. I have some time but we inch closer everyday. Time isn’t forever so I will try my hardest but if it’s the only way it’s the only way…
I have some time
hopefully I find someone
but if it becomes too late
It will be time for me to leave
Fin.