I always thought she was a lot prettier than me, but I don’t see why that should bother me the way it does because it shouldn’t matter at all, especially since she’s a crappy person with a bad personality and a crappy life, and my husbands loves me and not her and I have a good heart so why should I feel jealous if I’d hate to actually be her? I never feel jealous of celebrities for being pretty and most of the time I feel confident and pretty myself, but whenever I’m reminded of her I feel ugly in comparison and I put myself […]
Beneathetide
I’m having a bit of an episode right now, just really hating myself and wanting to bruise myself. But I can’t because then my husband would see the bruises. I need a distraction, I need to calm down. Normally I’d try running to relax but this time I don’t want to, I just wanna freaking hurt myself so bad. I feel like I deserve it. I want to see myself writhering in pain on the outside like the way my heart feels on the inside right now. I can’t talk to my husband about how I feel because he wouldn’t be able to deal with […]
It’s just a game, but I’m so hard on myself for not being good enough
I feel dumb for making this post but I don’t know why this has been making me feel so bad lately. I started playing World of Warcraft in July, and I absolutely love it, but I’m still such a newb compared to my husband and his friends. We often all play together, and naturally I don’t do as good as them and it sometimes feels like they expect me to suddenly be an expert with years of experience. It doesn’t help that yesterday I overheard them talking about how I didn’t do good. I mean they do make an effort to help me and include […]
What’s a random object you own that you really like? What’s a random object you don’t own that you wish you had? (Excluding phones and stuff because that’s obvious lol)
For me I’d probably sayyy my blender xD I use it all the time to make smoothies and protein shakes so I love it. I don’t really own any prized possessions. Heck, even chip clips make me happy haha.
One object I’d totally love to have if I could is Blizzard’s Sylvanas statue from World of Warcraft! *fangirls like crazy*
What about you guys?
I’ve been pretty good for quite a while, but recently I’ve felt depression trying to squeeze in again. Last week I had a big episode, suddenly feeling like life was pointless for no reason, etc, lots of crying and anxiety over nothing. Well my husband wanted to talk about it, but my instinct was to isolate myself and avoid him, so I left for a walk in the middle of the night which upset/hurt him and he told me that it made him contemplate a divorce. I don’t think he truly meant it and I think he was mostly lashing out in return to kinda […]