need a job, can’t get one. want to move out of this fucking house. tired of people telling me to get a job when that’s impossible to do when you can’t even muster the energy to look for one. if anyone can help !
I know this probably isn’t a massive problem for other people but I’ve been looking for a job for 2 years and even McDonald’s won’t call me back. I feel so useless next to my friends who’ve all managed to find something while I’m there not being able to buy food with them and them paying for drinks for me. I want anything, I don’t care what it is. It’s sending me down a spiral that won’t stop
I got a boyfriend, finally thought this one would last, but but only lasted 4 months. We agreed to stay friends, been pretty good for a month, but now he just wants me to leave him alone. All I’ve ever been is nice, so why am I so alone. I wish I could have somebody who loved me.
I also broke my clean streak, I’ve cut again.
Anyway, alone, lonely, no one to talk to, that’s just me.
If you wanna talk or anything, I’m shit at advice and might be shy at first, but my discord is Izzywave#4955
Fuck bpd this shit makes my life so hard. Finally got myself a boyfriend but all I want to do is push him away. Also, this may seem irrational but why tf does he only like trap music, like jesus fucking christ can you be a little less boring.
I told my ex a few weeks ago I had met someone else as me and him have been apart for over a year now, best friends. He told me today he’s met someone, except he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. I thought we’d be best friends forever, but of course a friendship with an ex has its problems. I thought ifI marry that boy.
JUST BEING BITTER, TRASH TALK I NEED TO PUT OUT SOMEWHERE:
i really believed you when you said we’d be together forever. i mean why should i have any doubts. but of course that didnt last long. the girl you wanted to be your ‘wife’ the girl that was the ‘light of your life’ is now the girl you dont have time for. now im just another ex.
i should have seen it from the start, why you had so many ex’s, why you still talked to all of them like you talk to me now. i wonder who your new girl is going to be and how long that one will last.
last post was:Right so, I’m in love with this boy who lead me on constantly, made empty promises and talked to other girls while I was with him, but I’m still hopelessly in love with him after 1 year of us breaking up, he still says he loves me which is why I kept holding on to this hope that one day we’ll be together. I think I’m finally realising that won’t ever happen, and its breaking me to be honest. I’m so worthless that someone who says he ‘loves me’ but treats me like dirt is someone I envisioned my life with. It feels like this love will never stop hurting me. At first he made me feel special, helped with my bipolar, but in the end he was just saying sweet words to forfill his Messiah complex. how do I break free
i realize how dumb my last post was, sorry for that. i cant seem to decide if i want to kms or not. in the day when im with people im happy, but at night i turn into a different person. my lonely bedroom swallows me and i see how worthless i am, although i dont think i can say goodbye to my bestfriend, i dont think i could say bye to my cat or sister or mum or teachers. im stuck in the middle at the moment so lets see how that changes.