bad news: got fired from work today
good news: have everything I need to end this nightmare
that’s my sole purpose of going to work everyday 🙂
on Sunday I thought maybe I should try to give life one last chance and move to the Caribbean and start of fresh. then after careful thought I changed my mind and Decied to proceed with my suicide. cause it is going to take a lot of money and energy to do that. and I don’t have that. especially the money.
So I’m just going to move on with the suicide cause it is a lot more easier for me to do so.
life is pointless at this point. there’s nothing left for me in this world
im not caring about anything anymore. cause if i start caring about things and try to fix it, its only going to delay my inevitable suicide. so i just have to face the fact that things are not going to get better and im destined to kill myself.
the moment my work lets me go (cause they are already releasing people) im going to end it. i have all of the things i need, i just need to do it 🙂
im sure i will be ready to end it in about 60 days from now
i will be free and happy on the day i end my life 🙂
I’m in the endgame of my life. I can feel it in my bones. all of the signs are telling me to die. all of the signs are telling me to put an end to this lousy life!!
I start a new job on Wednesday and if I get fired or forced to quit for whatever reason, I’m just going to kill myself without thinking twice.
I not going to sit and hope to wait for things to go my way and put in the energy to look for another job. not doing it anymore.
It’s so over without a second thought 🙂
existing not living
the best part of about dying is that u don’t have to worry about nothing anymore. u dont have to worry about bills, about being late for work, dealing with snorty people; the list goes on. u are just lying there sleeping peacefully for eternity. never to be bothered again 🙂
i pretty much have had enough with life. about a month ago i got discharged from the psych ward, which was complete hell. and now i think i have move on and put an end to this madness. for the last 10 plus yrs. i have been waiting for a change and here i am, and nothing has changed. me ending my life is the only way out of this madness. thats the message i keep on receiving.
long story short, this ends sometime between now & December 2019. im not holding out to see if things gets better (cause i know it wont) i just want to enjoy the remaining months with my family. i want some warm thoughts of them before i make a hasty exit from this sick disgusting planet im forced to live in.
im so sick of waking up to this world every single morning. enough is enough
my last meal is going to be a fresh lobster, with some french or israeli red wine, fire grilled shrimp, a pork chop and a cohiba cigar.
what you guys last meal? if u are thinking of having one