Right now, there are people all over the world who are just like you. Theyâ€™re lonely. Theyâ€™re missing somebody. Theyâ€™re in love with someone they probably shouldnâ€™t be in love with. They have secrets you wouldnâ€™t believe. They wish and they dream and they hope, and they look out the window whenever theyâ€™re in the car or on a bus or a train and they watch the people on the streets and wonder what theyâ€™ve been through. They wonder if there are people out there like them. Theyâ€™re like you, and you could tell them everything and they would understand.
And right now, theyâ€™re sitting here reading these words, and Iâ€™m writing this for you so you donâ€™t feel alone anymore.
today i was at the edge. everything within my reach but instead i went for a walk with a friend. i vented we sat at a park swing for about 2 hours and he just let me talk. and ive realized that even when people treat me like im worthless hes there and wont judge me for my actions. it was a windy day and he just let me talk and for a fleeting moment i was content with my life. of course reality has set in now and the boy who treated me wrong has entered my thoughts but i keep thinking that within all this bad the future must contain more windy days like this and it wont just be a moment but a lifetime.
its so easy to vent your feeling to a stranger, someone who wont judge you, or at least you hope he wont. ive made so many mistakes and i keep repeating one because i think that maybe just maybe this time it will be different and that it will make me feel valuable instead of cheaper, but it doesnt. for the moment it doesnt feel wrong but afterwards my brain takes over and i begin to think and i see my error and i want to take it back but i cant so then i just want to stop myself from doing it again not just that, but any mistake. after it i feel so alone, and it just makes me wish harder that i had someone, not to be in a relationship or naything like that just someone that would help me cry but i dont and i just dont want to cry anymore.i want to be in a place where i can sleep and never wake up. i want to find home.