So, I think I might do it tonight. I’ve been wanting to get this over with for such a long time but I don’t know..I guess I was too scared to actually go through with it before.  It was like the fear outweighed the pain, but now it’s the other way around so I’m ready. Anyway, I’ve researched tons of ways to do it from carbon monoxide poisoning to some method that involves charcoal and another method that involves coffee etc but I’ve decided to go with hanging myself.  I would feel guilty about leaving my family behind if they actually cared but they don’t […]
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I’m so tired of my family making me feel like a freak for wanting to be alone. The other day my mom was asking me about why I don’t have a bf. I told her it’s because I just don’t want one. So then she goes into telling me how I’m 18 and that’s not normal and she goes up to my dad like “What’s wrong with her?” etc. She doesn’t understand that with SA/AvPD it’s really really really hard for me to talk to anyone and I feel I guess…safer when I’m alone. I don’t have to feel bad and depressed about the way […]
I hate myself. I try so hard not to but I do.
I really really really do. I hate my hair, skin, eyes, mouth, teeth, lips, nose, breast,body, everything.
It’s all just disgustingly hideous.
And, on top of that I’m a pathetic loser.
I have no friends and no life. My family feels the need to point this out to me daily.
My sisters constantly tell me how I’m a weirdo, a creep, and an ugly loser.
I tried to talk to my mom to feel better, but she got pissed off at me and told me to stop bothering her. She told me that the […]