I am not doing good right now the obsessive ruminating thoughts are torturing me it’s all I can think right now I’ve been good for a few weeks and then I lost control of my mind I hate this feeling I have smoked a pack of cigarettes in 4 hours really not doing good I hate myself I hate my life I hate my mind anyone have advise on how to slow the thoughts down
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I’m stuck in a prison called my room. I want to go out but my paranoia prevents me. My racing thoughts are torturing me . Please help me anyone I’m not doing well.
I am stuck in my room all day. It is hard to go outside my paranoia is very bad right now. I have schizophrenia. I hear voices whispering in my ear I can’t get calm. I don’t know how much I can take I have been like this for eight years. I slit my wrist very bad a few months back. I can’t take the racing thoughts my mind never gives me a break. Please God have mercy on my soul I can’t take much more. I love you grandma and grandpa thank you for everything I can’t take much more
in a very tough spot right now I feel worthless and ashamed .i am battling some severe paranoia and hearing voices that sound like they are whispering in my ears. I hate my life I have a tough time getting out because of my paranoia I’m scared. I’m at my lowest point I slit my wrist a few months ago but chickened out after cutting wrist to the bone I called a family member to take me to the hospital where I was for a few weeks. Very scared and anxious about the future every day I battle this mental illness and I […]
Can’t take no more. He’ll can’t be any worse than this. I am planning to go out within the week. I’ll give God a little more time. My faith is depleted . Having the worst thoughts I have ever had. My mind stays stuck on them 24/7. So much regret and remorse I can’t deal with it . This is the only way out. I’m sorry for being a quitter. I love you grandma and grandpa you tried but I can’t do it anymore.
The fear of going to hell can only hold me back for so long. My paranoia has gotten the best of me and now I have severe depression. No energy ,ruminating bad thoughts that terrorize me all day long. I’m in hell. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I am fatigued all day my body feels sick . I want to sleep to get away from the thoughts but cant. I’m almost over the edge and ready to snap. I have not drank alcohol for two years but almost ready to drink again and live homeless I don’t care anymore it’s the only thing to […]
Not doing well right now. I’m in a bad place. Things will never get better. Why do I have to be like this. I can’t stop the thoughts . I’m in a prison inside my head and room constantly tortured by demons. I just want out I can’t do this anymore. Why do I have to go to hell because I want out its not fair I hate life, I’m scared of everything and everyone. Why did I do drugs. I had a bright future and now look at me. Just want to give up nothing good will happen . I’m finished I’m done fighting. […]
I have had the same ruminating thought for more than a month all day from the day I wake up until I go to sleep. It’s driving me crazy it’s a bad thought. Any suggestions on how to alleviate some of the pain. I have a Dr appointment next Wednesday don’t know if I will make it please please any suggestions.
I’m at my lowest point in life and I want to die. I hope something happens to me fast that I don’t see coming. I have given up. My thoughts consume me . Every morning as soon as I wake up my thoughts take control it is crippling and I get stuck in them. They are scary. I need a drink of alcohol. I have not drank in two years but it’s the only thing that stops these thoughts. The only problem I’ll get kicked out of where I am staying. I get no relief day in day out the thoughts never stop. I can’t […]
I have not had what I call a good day in months. I just want one more good day before I end it. I lost hope . Every night when I go to bed I dread waking up to the pain and misery there is only one option I am hanging on by a thread one little thing will push me over the edge.
When I smoke cigs I sometimes get bad thoughts and thinking to much and also paranoid. Does anybody else get like this or any other negative effects.
I don’t think I can take another day
I thought pot would help me out but it backfired. I never felt so empty and made my paranoia worse. I have had anxiety all day. I did a lot of thinking and it solidified me that i want to leave this earth. My mind is constantly negative thinking the worse. I hate my life I hate myself I don’t want to fight anymore I am broken mentally and don’t see any hope
I know I keep posting I am going to do it and I don’t I just feel like it’s my best option. I am in my room 23 hours a day 7 days a week and trying to fight these thoughts all day is wearing me down. I am tired of life I just want out but have not got the courage to do it. This thought is tormenting me to the point I want it to stop. I don’t know if it is real or not. I am scared lonely and confused. I foreshadow my future life and it is worse then what ithe […]
I am done with this life. I tried praying and reading the bible but I am in a bad situation with no way out. I tried contacting my friend for some weed he asked who it was and when I told him he ignored my message. I have done a lot for people and everyone just ignores me. I hate my life and I hate my thoughts they are bad. I have three options take 1200 mg of zyprexa rent a hotel room and slit my wrists vertically or jump off the parking garage or bridge. I just want out of this life. I hate […]
My thoughts are really bad right now. I am being tormented by demons. The only way out is to kill myself. I am going to scope out the place tomorrow to see if it is high enough. I can’t fight my thoughts anymore they are to much. I love my grandparents so much and I know it will hurt them. They have to understand I am being tortured by these internal demons. I hope I get to go to heaven but I am willing to take the chance. I’m so lonely and these bad thoughts don’t give me a break in love my grandparents so […]
Please God take me before I have to take matters into my own hands. I’m broken nothing can help I’ve tried all the medicines and therapy for the past seven years.help or let me die in peace .
I am very unstable right now. I can see myself leaping off the parking garage tomorrow at the mall a girl killed herself a few years back doing it. I can’t go on any longer I want out I want out I want out I want out I want out I want out I’m in hell. Please if your reading this live your life in a good manner no drugs, fighting, and other bullshit.
There is a bridge by my house that seems like it is the best way to leave this pain behind.I can’t go on anymore it’s to hard I just want out. All I do is sit in my room and stare and smoke cigs. I have troubling thoughts all day long. If this isn’t he’ll I don’t know what is.
I am done I can’t battle anymore. I love grandma and grandpa. I have to many bad thoughts I can’t get over. I am done fighting. Please God take me. I have been this way for to long I don’t want to battle anymore. This is the only way out.I just want peace. I love my bro, sis, mom and dad too. Also to my friends thanks for the good times.