I’m just really tired. I’m not even 20 and I can’t imagine going on like this. I struggle to eat some days and I hate myself when I do. When I cut I hate how weak I am but when I don’t I hate that I don’t have the pain that I deserve. I’m a bad person. I don’t deserve all that I have. I wish I could sleep and never wake up so I never have the chance to hurt a decent, worthwhile person again.