Still alive, a little better, no longer suicidal unfortunately now I’m schizophrenic though. I am about to start school, I’m terrified that I’ll fail due to the brain decay from years of depression, but I’m still gonna try. Also apparently I wasn’t hacked I was just paranoid.
Many times I wonder if
CSmith, Rivets, MTPluto and the people who were here when I discovered this place still come here.
Anywho, sometimes things get better. They did for me (other than the schizophrenia part). I’m glad I didn’t commit suicide. But it’s ok to not be ok, just seek help if it gets to serious. You’ll know when that is. I hope everyone gets better or copes well with this condition we call depression. There is so much to live for. Death is one of those things too. Remember most people who live, die. Want to self harm? Hit the gym, trust me it hurts and makes you feel alive. I think I want to express so much about being on the other side of depression aka recovery, but I best let each person live their own version and what that may look like for each individual. Don’t give up, your life matters.
And for the song Loose You To Love me by Selena Gómez. It kinda fits my life at the moment since I lost so much but gained myself instead.