Sometimes God doesn’t change your situation cause he’s trying to change your heart.
1. don’t give a shit. 2. Don’t give a shit! 3. DONT GIVE A SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m having a really bad day..cried too much..thinking of running away..ive lost all optimism for ive been used, abused, raped and having to start all over again just to repeat everything again..I don’t think so..I’m done. I’m nobody. Ive been treated that way all my life and its just been confirmed again.
Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take.
Alright my game is on…GO BIG BLUE..CATS, CATS, CATS..BLUE..WHITE..BLUE..WHITE!
My life may not be going how I planned it, but it is going exactly how God planned it.
If what’s ahead scares you, what’s behind hurts you, just look above..He never fails to help you.
I’m not on here because I would ever kill myself..no way..no how. Ive just experience a lot of death..ive experience friends who have..ive not had any insight in why they’ve left on their own free will. Some people in jails or institutions don’t feel like they have anything to live for..I understand..they’ve done a horrible crime but God can change anyone so maybe God asked them to be with him. I can accept that but don’t ever kill yourself unless you are absolutely in your damn right mind! How do you know if its really God telling you to do it? I don’t think he would ever do that..we don’t know though unless someone speaks out or until we ask God in heaven. I’m going to say this again..I’m not here because I want to die..sure I have no fear in being with my heavenly father but I don’t care how bad it gets..I’m not leaving unless something tragic happens to me or God calls me. Sure I had babies before I knew I was going to die..I had babies unplanned by myself. I no longer can have anymore. I’m thankful for what I do have as everyone should. I’m not a whore cause I didn’t plan on having kids..I’m just blessed to have them until they leave my side. My kids mean more to me than anything in this world..I hope you know that someone, somewhere thinks that of you too!
If I don’t respond back soon..something bad has happened..I heard a scream and I think someones broke in my house..phone is upstairs.
My ex is living with someone that has 2 kids by someone else..he is cheating on her with another girl that has 2 kids from someone else..I guy I used to see when I got my first divorce is living with a woman that has a kid by someone else yet he tells me that he wants me..yet he is cheating on her too with his ex wife that is living with someone else..tell me this life gets any better..PLEASE!
I had a dream of shooting some bad guy wearing a black bandana, he was attacking a bunch of people including my family..it was very vivid..very real..lots of screaming. I didn’t stay up late or eat late..if I ever have a dream it usually happens or something real close happens..I’m a little scared, what could that dream mean?
We are so busy watching out for what’s ahead of us that we don’t take time to enjoy where we are.
I wanted to try something to get more knowledge of what songs people might like to make them happy..they say classical music stimulates the babies brain so maybe if I listened to good music that makes you happy then we could be on the same page..that’s what friends are for right? I like leona Lewis, footprints in the sand & I like beyonce, I’m here. Now it’s your turn..what songs make you happy?
Ive been abused as a child…
Ive lost loved ones..family & friends… Ive been divorced twice by the same man & I have no friends cause they just want to laugh at you & tell you your just crazy… I have a gun… ive been harrassed all my life..people throw you out like trash and tell you that you mean nothing to them..push you to kill yourself so they can take all you have… I don’t want to eat..just happy to smoke cigarettes… Men always want what they cant have & if you deny what they want..they go find it & your left out in the cold..I’m good enough until they take everything you have..then I’m not good enough… Ive had friends commit suicide…
Ok..my day was going good, until I walked into a restaurant and saw my ex husbands family. It shouldn’t bother me, knowing they were not the ones hurting me..but of course it still ruined my day. I know in my heart that ive loved all I can..tried the best I can so why can I not get over the feeling of betrayel and sadness. Ive worked all my life..never went on vacation unless I paid for it myself. Took my ex a few places..even out of the country but he never wanted to take his family anywhere..including mcdonalds. His girlfriend and him would keep me prisoner in his home..would laugh about not giving us any food for dinner. He made it clear he wanted nothing to do with us..beat me in the bathroom..wouldn’t allow me to call for help..blood all over the floor, black eye. He had his buddy come over and they would pin me down acting like they were going to rape me. Yes, both of them..touching me all over with me screaming and telling them to stop. Yes, all this happened with my kids upstairs asleep. If I could just get over the pain..but how to live the rest of my life knowing I cant live alone because ive been raped in my past. I cant live with another man cause I’m scared of them..but I want to be protected. Even cops can be terriffying though. When I had a home, a job and noone else in my life..I lived with no fear and completely happy. Then I got married to share my happiness and he took every happiness away from me. Now I’m homeless with 3 kids and the only people I have in my life is my parents. I really hate men and I’m not attracted to women so I need to know how to get over all the pain. Help….
She sits alone and wonders, when is the end of broken dreams? This isn’t what I pictured. She says as tears run down her cheeks. She needs a friend beside her, she’s looking for a savior. Hold on, hold on. Someone will find you, hold on, hold on. Somebody loves you.