I hate myself so much. Im a 100 percent conscious about the things i have to change about my attitude, life and relationships. I know perfectly how things have to get done to be finally happy. But i just can’t change. Changing is so difficult for me. Thats the reason i hate myself. I make people suffer so badly and i can’t control it. Im a ugly,slefish and ungreatful woman who only thinks about herself. I treat my parents so badly. I make them suffer a lot and thats so so unfair! They give me everything and im still so ungreatful. I make my boyfriend […]
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I think it all started when my parents got divorced. It was so hard for me! And im still dealing with that, even though it happened almost 9 years ago. Also, it was very hard for me when Mom brought his new boyfriend to our house as soon as she divorced. She never asked me if it bothered me to live with someone who was completely new for me, and it really did. I was always jealous because she was always with him, and they are still like that. I hate that! She replaced me with him. It was always me and her, but when […]
Feeling so much hate right now… I prommised myself i wont have another rage attack, but i just got one!! I can’t control myself and my anger is constantly manipulating me. I feel hate for everyone. Nobody cares about me. I dont give a shit when someone tells me im important or that they care about me, because i know thats not the truth and that everyone who says me that is a hypocrite! I feel hate for literally EVERYONE. Im just so filled up with madness that i fucking want to end up my miserable and hatefull life. I have NO ONE in this […]
Hi everyone. I just wanted to say that im really thankfull for all the messages and coments. I really apreciate them and i take the time to read every single one of them, and all the advice and personal stuff you tell me, i really take them into account.Maybe im not answering and im really sorry about that and the idea of you thinking im an asshole because of that it makes me sick! I just dont have the time to answer every comment but they are REALLY helpfull and im also gratefull. I even know some of you bc i remember ur usernames.
Im so […]
My Mom told me she is afraid of me commiting suicide. With her own words, she said she is afraid of me bumping my head so hard untill i die.Im so ashamed of myself. I had another rage attack this morning while my Mom was driving me to school. I started screaming very loud with a raspy voice while i was kicking the inside car with my legs and hitting with my feast the car’s glass so hard that i almost brake it. She also said that she thinks im using hard drugs and bc of that my temper is getring darker. Im just another […]
Just had another anger attack for no reason at all. When i do, i start hitting myself and bumping my head against the wall, i start pulling of my hair untill it comes out,i try to scream (but i dont because there is usually someone near),i cut my wrists and legs by myself and i get in a violent mood. I cant contol my rage, and furor is fucking killing me. In exactly 15 days im finaly going to the Psychrist and get a medication. My parents want’s me to get medicated since a couple of years ago, but i totaly refused to […]
This morning i was fighting with my mother because she is forcing me to go to a psychrist and get on a treatment and also because she wants my father and sister know that,even though i dont want because im totally embarrassed. My mon started beating me, and i got so angry that i punched her back and she fell to the floor. Im so embarrassed about that and i really hate myself for being such a violent. I deserve to die, and even if i dont, i wish i did.
Im tired of being so queerish. Im 100% aware of my oddness and sometimes y just beg for being like a normal person.
So anxious and annoying …
Bruh. It sucks when you are into someone but he doesent likes you back.
I hate my Dad,i hate my Mom and i hate my Sister too. My mother and sister both says im a psycopath and that i should be hospitilized. My Father once told me im a bad daughter and a piece of trash and my Mom called me a monster. My Sister is constantly trying to get my parents to punish me. She always says that im a weirdo and that nobody likes me because of that, and that i will die alone. She once even cried because she said i was weirdly dressed and that im not into “fashion”. My Father has violent tendencies and […]
Smoking pot became a rutine. I get high every single day and if i dont do,i get really depressed and dark thoughts start eating my conciousness. Im totally aware of my adicction and that weed is slowly converting me in a sloth. Yes,a sloth. And i mean it. Lately im feelling very slothful,my lack of energy is constantly increasing and my enthusiasm for things totally disapeard. Weed makes me so sluggish that sometimes im even lazy to cook and everytime im much more sure to describe myself as an antisocial teen. Is it even normal to cancel every plan with your friends and family just […]
Im exhausted and i can bearly breath. Im tired of this sick and mad world. Im still facing depression and it seems it will be attached to me forever. I force myself every single day to live,and even to eat! I cant get over my emotions, they are totally manipulating me,as if i were a puppet! A fuckimg meat puppet!
My anger is constantly increasing and i cant control it. I start having agressive responses and violence starts taking control over me. My emotions are constantly manipulating me and i can’t fucking get rid of that !
Im lost . Im angry with the fucking entire world […]