I am so freaking mad. My ex comes to my house the other night shoots in my back yard, I call the police and he files a restraining order? I cannot afford to represent myself from this right now. I just finished maternity leave and am at 60% pay right now. I owe the electric company 1500 bucks and they are going to shut us off just around the corner soon. I am so sick of being stalked and smashed by this guy. He wrecked everything my house and broke my face as well. […]
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Well, I hate my life as usual.  I am glad that I made it through today.  I watched my young daughter sleeping in my lap.  She wiggled about and I studied her quite a bit.  I felt ashamed for her shameful rocky start to life.  I never understood cutting oneself until for what ever reason I did it myself just over a year ago.  I cut my entire leg from the ankle to just above the knee.  I did it over and over until I just decided to stop.  Of course, I was too ashamed to get stiches so I left the larger cuts heal […]
Hi. I am going to a therapist tomorrow to see if I can find a new “person” for me to be.  I spoke to a counsellor at my work and she asked me how long has it been since I have felt like myself and happy. I had told her that I could not remember truthfully.  We both shared a laugh when I said that I will just have to find a new person to strive to be.    I decided long ago and after careful research that I will die of hanging.   I have plannned it all out for a long while. This plan includes  home improvement and fixing […]