Corrupter

I realised that it’s time to accept who I am, and I don’t need to follow anyone else’s footsteps. I need to be free from my parents’ expectations and live the life that I want to. People can’t change me, but I will still put myself out there, even if my actions look weird to people.

I was having a conversation with my mother and grandmother and they revealed something about me when I was a child. My grandmother told me that I used to play with her cards and rings and lay them on the ground, almost organising and placing them in a […]

Anyone else find themselves having contradictions within themselves?

My brain forces me to follow my old ways with things, because it follows patterns. For example ever since I was a child, I was quiet and introverted probably from some trauma or illness, who knows. And here I am still quite and unable to open up in real life. Yet my heart tells me that it’s wrong and I should better myself. I.e. socialise more. I do also think that family pressure is affecting this though, because they always compare me to others and expect me to do certain things like go out to parties and what […]

I’ve been on SP for like 3 years, lurking until now. I’m here just like all, if not most of you are; depressed, suicidal. I think I’m finally ready to open up here, at least it’s somewhere…