I had suicide ideation now for a good year now. All I see is darkness and nothing else. It feels like I am alone and that no one is ever there for me. Ever since my EX broke up with me I felt my whole world becoming filled with more and more darkness. It’s now gotten to the point i cut my wrists on a daily basis to try and get rid of my emotional pain but it doesn’t seem to work. I also tried to take up alcoholism to drink away the pain but that didn’t seem to work either. Now all I see is darkness and I am at the point where I feel like hanging myself with wire. My parents never liked me growing up by calling me a “mistake“ and also telling me how they wish I were dead and frankly I think they have a point and are correct when they say that. Hopefully once I am gone from this world I can find happiness in the afterlife. Please don go down the same path I did.